about the significant other getting an academic position for next semester. Today there is more great news. I am a silly, silly boy sometimes.

What the hell is going on yesterday and today? I feel like I began both days cranky as hell and that I have little or no justification for it. I mean, sure, there’s always justification for everything, but there’s no reason I should be cranky yesterday and today in particular more than on any other days. Is there? I can’t tell.

It may simply be a matter of the accumulation of everything. There is an awful lot of everything just now. Things that are wonderful. Things that are stressful. Things to look forward to and things to be afraid of and things that are just sort of there and that sometimes bother me and sometimes don’t.

Of course, I fully realize that life is always full of such things. But right now it feels as though it’s more full of such things than it’s ever, ever been before, and yet I am as completely vulnerable to everything as I have ever been and there is no real respite in sight.

And now I’m sitting here in this NSSR building and it’s damn cold and I don’t have any additional clothing and I have to be here until 8.00 (four more hours) since I have a class here.

Gah.

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“It is difficult to get a man to understand something when his salary depends upon his not understanding it.”

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Yesterday ended very well, actually. Maybe I just lose perspective far too quickly.