is a strange kind of beast
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It’s always hard to tell liberation from domination from failure.
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It’s a Saturday afternoon in New York City and I’m at school (pretty much the only one). Why?
I don’t know. Why not?
I have a bunch of photos to keyword and caption, but I’m not really into that right now. I need… something… but I don’t know what. Always that’s the way. I guess what I really need is to resolve paradoxes.
I want to live in the snowy mountains and I want to live in the dirty, packed city.
I want to be alone and I also want company.
I want to be poor but I also want to be able to play rich and travel, photograph, etc.
I want to teach and I also want to get out of academia forever.
I want to be a photographer but I don’t want to have to sell photographs.
I love technology but I also find it to be completely unfulfilling and banal.
I always miss my friends but I never, ever see them.
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I should get to work. That’s why I’m here.