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I am on emotional autopilot. Really October of 2006 has been one of the most emotionally draining months I’ve ever lived through, and it’s not even half done yet. I feel like I need to lie low and not go out on any limbs for a while.

2006 as a whole hasn’t been a joy ride, but at least now I’m in NYC and hopefully things will start to stabilize. I sort of think they already are. But it’s hard to tell. It’s always hard to tell.

I’ve been thinking more about what I said a couple of posts ago. I might need to stop blogging. Every seed of a good idea ends up in a blog post here or elsewhere, instead of in a book or in a paper. On blogs, it doesn’t work for me. I’m old enough now that I start needing things to work for me.