i just
give up
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i’m a fool to do it all over again, yet here it is, happening all over again. how many times in my life do i have to do such things before i learn? 10? 100?
the time for ideallism — is over.
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worst wishes to all those who aren’t standing up for me; i have no need of such “help.”
everyone else has spent a lifetime taking care of themselves. it is high time that i do the same.
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modernity: i join you now.
