I’m not usually one for planning ahead or even believing in planning ahead, but it’s like 3.30 am and I haven’t been sleeping and I just got happy. After six months here I’d tentatively decided that I didn’t want to stay in school as long as Ph.D., but I’ve been getting worried about that: what if I get out there and can’t find my place still, and everything goes to shit?
Then I realized: I’ve still got deferrments! I can still go to New York in fall, 2005, without lifting another finger, if my life isn’t looking like I want it to by then! And if I do lift a finger, I can probably even score a better financing package.
But of course eyedoewanna getta Ph.D. anymore. Maybe.
Who cares. For once, I’m ecstatic that I planned ahead. Life is cool.
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“My head’s on straight. My girlfriend’s beautiful. Looks pretty good to me.”
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Shit, I gotta get some sleep.